Escaping Social Media

The year was 2013,
and I had an awesome company phone.
photo by Kata Varga

As an old millennial, that “digital native” label just doesn’t apply to those of us who grew up in the age of dial-up internet.

We lived without smartphones. Although, I did use a pager before trading it in for a flip phone in 2006. 

Social media was our neighbourhood Robin's Donuts where we all hung out.  

And we got bored. All the time. We couldn’t whip out a phone and check the ‘Gram while we waited for a bus. If we were smart, we brought a book. But mostly, we just waited and did nothing…

I’m not like every old millennial. I was a slow adopter. Some of my peers jumped onto new tech as soon as they could. I still remember a media-information-techno-culture friend patiently explaining the difference between MySpace and Facebook in 2006 -- the year of my flip phone.

As time wore on, I slowly started adopting these technologies and social media (a word that wasn’t even used then). It began with that MSN instant messenger. Then creeped into Facebook. Twitter. And so on.

Older millennials like me weren’t entirely prepared for it, because we didn't grew up with it. People made jokes about their "CrackBerry." MSN chat interrupted our essay writing time. You checked your Facebook daily for updates. Twitter was firehose of realtime... "content."

At some point, social media and its ilk stopped being a novelty and become a compulsive thing you did when you opened a tab on your brower, looked at your phone, or when you were bored. And most of the stuff didn't matter much.

By 2012, I had enough. I was going to quit it all. Which would not have been hard. I had email. I had a flip phone. I could call my small circles of friends. Send a terse SMS to my mom. Mostly, I met friends and family face-to-face.

Then I moved to Budapest. Suddenly, these social media traps became more difficult to escape. Without face-to-face interactions, Facebook felt like a legitimate way to keep in touch. I wasn’t seeing family and friends every few days, so at least I had a witty update or a nice looking photo to share. I clicked "Like" to tell them I liked something and let them know I'm there.

And so social media remained in my life, becoming a lifeline back home. To quit Facebook or Instagram or any of that would sever that lifeline.

Since then, I've tried to achieve balance with social media. Its utility is hard to dismiss, but its compulsive nature is easy to resent. Remember that old saying? "If you're not paying for it, you're the product." I wanted to use social media without being used. 

But that’s next to impossible. These things are cleverly designed to hijack our attention. We upload photos and check for the ‘Likes,’ again and again. Every new feature, newsfeed tweak, smartphone notification is an underhanded way to get us to log on and get sucked in.

It feels like the only way to stop being used by social media is to stop using social media.

I'm not quite there, yet. With family and friends far away, I can't deny that social media does have its uses. So, I've been experimenting with quitting without quitting.

I tried no social media first thing in the morning. Then most of the day. I deleted most social media apps from my phone. Shut off most notifications. I check my accounts weekly, if that. 

The change has been incredible. A background anxiety that I didn’t know existed has evaporated.

When I see an amazing thing, my first impulse isn't always to whip out my phone to snap an Instragram-worthy photo. It can be an amazing thing that I can experience, without thinking about the little ripples it will make in my tiny social media following.

It's actually nice to be bored sometimes, alone with my own thoughts, without inputs screaming into my skull. 

I feel better. 

And it’s not a new feeling.  As an older millennial, I remember life without constant connection. Sure, we still had to go to Blockbuster to rent a movie, get our party photos professionally developed, and ask someone about their relationship status. But there was a stillness in our lives back then. 

Drastically cutting my social media use has shown that stillness wasn't a young-person-with-nothing-better-to-do thing. It was a social media thing.

There are drawbacks to my quitting social media without quitting it. Long-distance relationships maintained by these social media channels aren’t being as well maintained. Getting acccustomed to simply posting and liking "content" on my social account has made me lazy.

So, I’m recommitting to chat groups, emails, and video calls. I'm also recommitting to this blog and its comments section (so write back, if you feel like it!). 

This new habit is not a final solution to our social media problem. There are engineers and scientists constantly tweaking and optimizing their social media platforms to hook us, so I'll have to keep tweaking my habits to stay ahead of them. I might even write another update here.